Breaking spells…

When our awareness shows us our beliefs and negative thought patterns then we can make strides to bring balance (using whatever tools you have; EFT, Emotion Code, Radical Forgiveness or The Work are mine). I am and have always been determined to get to the root cause of any trauma, when I had acne rosacea I knew the imbalance wasn’t just physical.

I forget so often that I am the creator of my reality, that I am a witch and can as easily uncast a spell as cast one.

‘I love you’ can break most spells and I have used those three magical words to ease and transform some very tense and difficult situations.

But turning it around and loving oneself is far easier said than done… I thought I was there, loving myself unconditionally but I wasn’t.

It wasn’t until the thought ‘I can’t be totally bothered with myself’ came into my head a few days ago that I realised, shit I still don’t love myself 100%, I then had a visceral reaction as my energy shifted, look at it like a gazelle being chased by a lion, when they do manage to outrun the lion, they will stand a shake themselves off, letting go of the trauma.

About a week ago, inspired by a very dear friend I started hugging myself whilst saying I love you out loud, to myself with intention, a simple yet powerful practice, this has helped me connect more with my divinity and led to that thought a few days ago.

The truth is that the majority of us live under this spell that we are not good enough, that we need this, that and the other in order to be better, to feel better, but it is far simpler… we are divine, we are expressions of the divine in human form…and the more we withhold this from ourselves then the more easily we can be entranced by the material which then leads to anxiety of mind, body and spirit.

Cut straight to spirit with those 3 magical words, they will transform you on all levels.

I love you…

War and peace…

It has been foretold about the transformation of consciousness our planet will experience and we have had a good few years of extreme and unpredictable challenges… who would have thought we’d be going through what we’ve been through.

All the old systems have to break down in order to create a more unified and fairer world, and these past few years have shown us the division and greed that has taken place, the hypocrisy and double standards, it really has been an extra ordinary time.

Those that resist will feel it more as old ways are discarded for newer ways… as they are rotten to the core.

Working on our inner war will help create peace, as we bring our shadows into consciousness we shift perspective and the energy will follow as we become more enlightened. If we could all do that so much the better but alas we have all levels of consciousness running amok in their human bodies on our planet, thinking it is for the best… like slugs, they’re just doing what they’re doing unaware that they’re eating your valuable veggies.

In truth it only takes a few to shift many, are you one of the few?

Fear can become trust, anger into understanding, whatever your trapped negative energy is, it can be dealt with, trust me I had them all!

We are divine beings living a short human experience choose peace.

Crossing the line…

As a young child I loved colouring-in books, I can easily recall my hand round those chubby wax crayons that most children from the ’60’s and ’70’s will remember well, when I was allowed felt pens, my hand eye co-ordination was a little better but not always in sync, any slip over can still be felt on a viscerally level, I was infuriated and disappointed if I spoiled my work. This internal damnation possibly came from parental judgement as I sought approval on all finished artworks.

So in those so important formative years, I learnt and logged that crossing a line was not good and that more care should be taken. As we age, lines start popping up all over the place; in the playground, sports field and the classroom. As teenagers many of us ‘crossed the line’ as we started figuring out that our parents line did not necessarily represent our line, with that power struggles ensued. Then when we get into a relationship, we have to adapt some more as my line may not be the same as your line, the same in the workplace, etc, etc, etc.

Without doubt lines are crossed or at least pushed the whole time, through need, greed or stubbornness, those that challenge get to move the line, some times temporarily, sometimes not. Those that are fearful will create more lines, to box us in, (always under the guise that it is for our own safety… really can we not be trusted?).

Here in the UK we are seeing how the minority have been skipping over these lines, whilst expecting everyone else to tow them… just look at our PM, a consistent jumper of lines or has he tripped himself up this time?

So my thought was… what if there were no lines?

It is only our human side that needs them because spirit knows the divinity and perfection in everything, presumably when we operate more from our higher being, that larger part of us, then we would just sort ourselves out? As there is an innate knowing of right and wrong, sure some would unravel without something to push against but ultimately wouldn’t balance be restored? A different balance sure but one that is enlightened, co-operative and unified not one based on fear and control.

Freedom is only a thought based on a limiting belief.

Christmas take two…

This is a time with family and loved ones. If you didn’t get to spend it with them last year then this is even more exciting!

We have a houseful this year, it is not my house though and I was aware that I was feeling this pressure of overwhelming my partner with all my offspring (5) + a few partners and a dog, not a small one either a blinking Mastiff!

Fortunately we have a rehearsal of Christmas earlier in the month as me and my partner share the same birthday, the Birthday Grinch is very like the Christmas Grinch, but this year he was a little grumpier, I’ve learnt to embrace my birthdays and to celebrate… I care less about aging than him and wish to encourage my elder, witch status! This year I had the choice to spend the day with a grumpy pusher downer of fun or leave him and spend the day in London with a few children… not a hard decision, I was on that train and in the city by 10.30, what fun I had with my youngest son who like me is a lover of life.

So, what did I learn. Not to lower my vibration to make him feel better, being a Grinch is his issue and not mine.

With that in mind I could feel the Christmas Grinch not wanting a big tree, not wanting decorations up, I had a mad moment wanting to make him feel better by buying a twig but actually that is compromising myself, he may be offering the space for us all but isn’t it vitally important that within that space is love, light and fun?

It’s like pulling a Christmas Cracker with no snap… boring!

So dear ones, love yourselves this Christmas, have fun with whoever you are with and let all Grinch’s free!

Joy is for life and not just for Christmas but it’s great place to start.

Whatever the weather…

The year is speeding past, here in the UK summer has been brief and inconsistent but this is life… brief and full of contrast, remembering that we chose to be here at this moment in time.

How we weather the storms will vary, for some a good walk will shake of depression but for others something more radical is needed, whatever it is will be to get out of ourselves, to put distance from us as the pain of that disconnection cannot be properly processed by sitting and facing it fully, humans are emotional beings… e-motion = energy in motion; tsunami or drizzle all deserve to be acknowledged and felt.

We are extraordinarily resilient, we British can come into our own more when things ‘need to be done’, that Dunkirk spirit out trumps upset as we soldier on, for some this is the answer but as the generations die out and the younger ones come in more connected another way will need to be found.

My dear mother is a ‘must get on’ generation, to talk about anything deep and meaningful is pointless as I am left feeling the weird one and abandoned when she starts focusing attention on the dog, lesson learnt, those conversations are best avoided. We spend a lot of time together (so plenty of learning opportunities!) and I am observing her as much as myself during our interactions, why do I feel this or that, then I remind myself that all I need to bring to the table is love and to love myself as much as her or indeed anyone when I feel tetchy or irritated.

Setting an intention at the start of ones day can cover all bases, mine has evolved into “I will bring love and joy”, this I now take with me into every high street, shop or home I visit, I can feel my inner light expanding as I walk down a road or when I chat or smile at another soul… shine and glow, shine and glow.

With weather this rubbish I would normally be thinking of sun seeking in the Med but that’s just looking outside of myself again for that solar energy, this summer has definitely brought me back to myself in a more empowered and grounded way, knowing that my inner power never left me, I just let myself cover it up by thinking I needed to reserve it for loved ones or being in a certain emotional state or with some wine or be on the beach… crazy thinking and excuses, dimming ones light… totally crazy…

Shine and glow, shine and glow.

A void…

Currently I have a few well loved humans who are in severe emotional, physical and mental turmoil, it is as if they are walking through treacle, unable to see or even shift into a different perspective. Too human, too bogged down in ‘shoulds, trying, guilt, shame, etc…’ with these human beliefs the law of attraction is feeding them more and more turmoil as they vortex downwards instead of upwards…

How is it best to support these people as they unravel?

Hold them in our thoughts, without lessening who we are… us getting sick will not make others well…

I have had such an experience this year, a client from a few years ago had kept in contact, they were shielding so avoided meeting up, just before Christmas their health spiraled downwards quite dramatically, she would call asking if I thought she had cancer, not a question I could answer, with little help from her GP she took herself off to a private London hospital where she was diagnosed with cancer of the esophagus. She had witnessed her husband dying of it a few years ago and knew exactly how aggressive it could be.

We ended up talking most days this year, I listened to her fears and her tears.

Since knowing this human I was aware just how seriously she took her health, whilst she was open to complimentary therapists this was trumped by her obsession with the data private blood tests gave her and her blood pressure machine, sometimes calling me to give me the high readings and asking what she should do, I suggested that perhaps she could have a break from testing and focus on breathing exercises instead, thus giving her a little more inner power over this aspect of her health. Her beliefs though were being fed by the reality these tests were giving her, they helped confirm her worst fears and that was that she was sick. Everything she was doing was inside out though.. her thoughts were the one thing she could not control and it was easy for me to see how she spiraled downwards with dominant negative thoughts. She had high expectations from humans too, they had to be heart centred, an empath, this is probably why she only had one other friend, who lived in Canada. Perhaps this is how I became drawn in… from therapist to friend, I felt sorry for her and wanted to fix her. When you spend a lot of time with someone though you can see their control dramas play out, and for her it was about making people wrong; doctors or friends, the amount they knew and the amount they loved.

Making people wrong about anything doesn’t make you right though, it just creates separation.

Since she died I have been trying to give meaning to her life, (from a spiritual/soul growth aspect), two marriages that she said were loveless, a sister who she didn’t feel loved by, yet she had the most loving parents and an idyllic childhood, how could this be? My only conclusion is that if she was loved so much as a child then perhaps her benchmark for love was so much higher than those of us who felt abandoned, rejected and unworthy, thus no one could measure up… apart from her dog…

The UK was not her country of birth, and where she lived was surrounded by a huge hedge, her garden bare and unloved, more indication of separation.

Now that she is witnessing those she has left behind she will see that she was loved and her passing has left a void, her smile was childlike and impish, she was kind and generous, and although I did not know her well she was loved by me for that short period in her life.

Love is love and it comes in all sorts of ways…

Wo Men…

All change comes from within; as certain realisations and behaviours come into consciousness, that in turn shifts reality, then when enough souls have had the same thought the tipping point is reached as group consciousness shifts. At the moment generational limiting beliefs are falling away, being macheted to the ground and trampled over. Here in the past few weeks women have been seeking to be heard, yet again, made harder when your audience is mainly made up of white males, (many of whom were shut away in single sex boarding schools from a very young age, to be released as 18 years old with little clue as to how to relate to women on any level; emotional, spiritual or physical).

As with anything in life we all have a point and then the Rubicon is crossed.

As generational inequality moves more into alignment, as when I grew up it was customary for the man of the house to sit at the head of the table, as did my ex, then my eldest sons, they were also served first. I witnessed a mother that put herself last and I repeated the pattern too of keeping small. I will not be doing this anymore, (perhaps I might invest in a round table too!).

At the end of the day we are all souls, (who signed up for this extra ordinary time on planet earth) and empowerment is an inside job, we cannot reject 50% of the planet, avoiding an issue never gets to the core, all humans deserve respect and esteem, some males and females need to work on this more than others. But for me this is a reflection of our deep disrespect for mother earth…the divine feminine. Parts of this beautiful planet have been raped of all resources, polluted for decades, exposed to nuclear explosions and left for dead, have had waste thrown at her from all areas and from all of us… it is certainly time to clean up our act.

Our souls will seek alignment with our physical, through emotions, I feel like we have taken a step back in the last few weeks, as the powers that be are trying to impose more control over us, but I am trusting the process, looking within and having a good rant if necessary. If you are feeling emotionally charged on any subject then dig deeper, heal the wound, heal the world.

Life… to us or for us…

It was a full moon yesterday… energies are high which to me means that whatever underlying issues you need to wrestle to the ground will be highlighted during this time.

If we all remember that life is happening for us and not to us then perhaps that is enough to shift perspective and allow yourself to enquire and investigate what has happened and continues to happen like a broken record.

Mine, empowerment, always empowerment. I have resolved to myself never to be dis-empowered by anyone else again, whether it is governments, conspiracy theories or much closer to home, family and other animals, I know what is true in my heart and will do my best to bring balance to that imbalance.

So, if we are living life through this premise then… and believe me when I say I have been around an awful lot of people who are dying, have died or wish to die… are we creating the illness, the dis-ease (emotional or physical) or is it happening for us??? And how far is too far… can we recalibrate if we are on the brink of death and have some spiritual enlightening experience like Anita Moorjani and many other near death experience humans or do we have to shed this shell in order to rebirth. My belief is that it can be resolved in a life time, no need to reincarnate, take the plunge now, release the shit that you hold on to and go with the flow.

If we hold firmly to the belief that it is happening ‘to us’ then we are the victim but to simply rephrase it to ‘for us’ allows us to check in to what has come before, see the repeat patterns and let them go. However, so many of us become attached to the sadness, the wanting, the lack that it is unfamiliar to shift vibrations for the better as it is out of our comfort zone. I remember when I started feeling ‘better’ and then dropped back down to my familiar doom and gloom that welcomed me like a comfort blanket and wanted me to stay in the grey. Fortunately my spirit knew better and shrugged it off. If I drop it is momentarily to give me the opportunity to ask myself … is this to me or for me…?

Feel the fear, anxiety, grief and do it anyway…

You are loved, always have been always will be.

Back to earth…

We have all chosen to be earthlings during this time for whatever lessons our souls wish to experience, we don’t know how long this particular part will last but I do believe that as long as one is consciously setting out desires then it will extend our lives and let’s face it no one wants to stagnate in the mundane, do they? Lock down 3 or is it 4? has had me feeling bored and uninspired, but I am totally fine with that, out of boredom comes creativity, dreaming is good and allows me to glean clarity on what I want as I remind myself that all is unfolding perfectly as it has and always will do.

I have always been a dreamer and to be honest feel odd after a chakra balancing session, it is not my normal to be so grounded. (Chakra wise, being more grounded shifts energies from the higher chakras down towards earth. Anxiety would live in the higher chakras along with dreaming; it is where an idea starts to be brought down to earth or not depending on how balanced one is). I don’t suffer from anxiety now but I know I used to get extremely stressed trying to reach my unattainable goals of perfection… the one area that always caused my anxiety to rise was around punctuality, of course the universe conspired to heal me as it gave me friends or partners who wore their tardiness as a badge of bloody honour, I well remember becoming more and more demented when they were consistently late, my logic knew they would be but I had no control over my energetic body and its reaction to this lack of respect around timing…until I learnt to heal my limiting beliefs… funny now looking back and also good to see how those energies have stabilised.

So with so many souls experiencing anxiety related issues at the moment (Vegus nerve exercises on the YouTube may help if you are one of them, EFT, Emotion Code too) the biggest shift is to realise that we are spiritual, eternal beings foremost, just playing at this human role. If we all started from this simple realisation then we will more easily see the magic life has to offer. Waking up every day saying ‘I am alive!’, ‘Wow, I chose to be human at this time’, ‘Wow, look at my body and the life I chose?’ would those words be enough to help shift your perspective on your life, let you step back a bit and see your human experience from a bigger picture approach… that it is exciting, thriving and blinking perfect.. giving space to appreciate what you have, from that perspective you are able to then take the next step up the ladder towards spirit, as one lets go of human limited thoughts.

A great wave is washing over us all at the moment to help us remember this connection, to wake us up to this possibility that we are all so much more… some will be brought to knees with despair… but I truly believe if we can just get into the practice of letting go of our humanness for small periods of time then it allows the more powerful spirit to reclaim what was and is always there… peace, love, serenity, connection and joy.

Meditate, walk in nature, yoga, laughing…basically find anything that gives you the space to connect to your divinity.

Live your best life everyone and be well.

It’s a wrap…

As the end of 2020 fast approaches, I find myself reflecting on what has been learnt and what still needs more practice.

The human me is always seeking vibrational alignment with the spiritual me and to whatever it is that I desire. I throw out the desire like a fly fisher would his line but instead of reeling in the hook, I use the space to clear up any limiting beliefs and energies as to why I do not have said desire. It’s a fabulous game to play and easily done when you know your physical and emotional body… Some times it is an action first, energies second or vice versa but when resolved you’ll know as you flow into what you want with no resistance… it happened with a job this year… I still laugh at how easy it was and thank the universe for supporting me.

In taking action… the inner dialogue can run rampant, speaking what it thinks is the truth but really it’s an old recording based on upbringing and our own delusion that we are somehow unworthy. Time to throw the tape away… unwrap the realisation and chisel away at the wall between you and your desire.

As our spiritual being knows none of this unworthiness stuff, we were born to thrive, our souls know there is a bigger picture to this human experience and 2020 has fast tracked us like never before to bring us to whatever realisations we were meant to see and to get us to clearly ask what do we want from our lives?

All walls are man-made and can be taken down, they have been built to control movement, people or emotions, they cause separation and division, they limit and curtail as they are built on fear, control and pain…

So my 2020 gift was, (that yet again)… and this is the running theme of my life… that I had abandoned myself for others, by doing this I am not in my true power. Crazy human thinking and thankfully clearly seen.

Being present is the best gift you can give yourself and anyone else as we enter 2021. Look within for expansion as we continue on our extra ordinary paths to alignment of mind, body and spirit.

Happy New Year to you all!